a Greet from Januari

Hello there, here's my 4th blog site, the continue of my lifetime stories in my 1st, 2nd, and 3rd before.. But i'll still active in my 3rd, so see u here and there!! ;)

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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

heart gallery

Deciding, not to give my heart to anyone. So it won't get hurt. Ya, i'm keeping it safe. Not because i'm that afraid of getting hurt, but more because of i just want it to be that way (this way already). Alone, but not lonely. Makes other happy without having it. Barely untouchable.

I'll keep my heart for my self and my family. Only. (Include my future children)
They have my blood. And the one i don't have to ask about loving me truly. That's the only reason why. I have no doubt about them having my heart, keeping it safe, and warm.

So it'll be easier for me to start and do anything. Everything i want. Without letting my heart take a part on it. Then (again) it'll be safe there, with me everywhere.

Having this heart for my own, doesn't means i stop seeing anyone or have no plan about the relationship thing. Cause it has no big impact to it. Besides decreasing my possibility to cry and disappointed about something or someone in the future. Isn't it sounds better?? ;)

I want my heart like an art in a gallery. Beautiful to see, heart warming. You can see it, but not to touch. Even sometime it can makes somebody happy just to see it till a smile painted on their face. Wonderful! :)

how about that one above?? Isn't it sweet?! ;)

xo. Asri Yanuarisa

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Honesty


There, me, sitting in front of the mirror in the dining room, answering a phone call, having a conversation with a friend, while wondering, "how long since my last time doing this thing in my life?". Ya, that thing, the many hours answering a phone call thing. Remembering that i've lost count, even the appetite.

Of course it's been so many time, since i had a special feeling to a special one, and since i had that special one as mine.

Almost a year. Long time? I don't know. All i know is just that it's too hard for me to feel and fall. Even when i really want to. My heart kindda frozen or something like an iceberg. So, it doesn't work.

Then, how long it would be that way? Of course it's gonna be another i don't know of mine. Ouw world, gimme a break! Who's heart is it here in my body anyway? I can't control it even for a bit!
I don't feel that happy anymore when i heard my phone rang, i'm not that excited anymore when i know there's a new message on my phone. What else? I've lost my excitement here!

Dear world, it's not a sad story here i write, i also not complaining as far as i can. It's only a feeling, an honesty, as usual.

01:09 a.m. here in West Java-Indonesia right now, so, Good morning everyone! Have a great day! :)

xo. Januari
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