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Saturday, December 27, 2014

Does it?

I still remember the reason why I always tried not to get attached to any person in my life before. I knew how it feels to be alone at any place and anytime without feeling lonely. I did almost anything by myself without feeling so hard about it. I felt stronger. I didn't give a chance for anyone to change it. Until Lord did.

Is it normal?
Now I feel needy, tired easily. It feels like my power decreasing, down, low. I don't like it. I don't want it.
I am happy with the love that I finally can feel now, I just don't wanna be weak.

For some person who really cares about me, it is a positive thing for me. For being not that too independent anymore. Because now I have someone who could taking care of me most of the time. But to me, it become a negative thing at the same time. Because I know, there will be some other time, when I should stand on my feet again without his help. When he's not around.

I need my power to stays at the same level. Not changing at all.

Love doesn't make us weak, does it?

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